Pigs, Dogs, & Sheep

I really hate to do this, but...

Yeah, so there's been a conflict within my suite...related to rooming next year....who's rooming with who...and it's a big mess...

I realized it's wrong...I can't talk about this on here...I realize that I don't live up to my view of fuck-it-all-I-don't-care-what-anyone-thinks-I'll-write-whatever-I-want...
I'm the type of person that doesn't want to step on anyone's toes (that's why I would be a horrible businessman, I'm not ruthless enough)...I often get stuck in the middle of things...

I can't spill my heart onto this journal anymore...for fear that it would be read and seen by others that SHOULDN'T be reading it...yeah, I've come to this realization...what....like after 3 years of blogging...yeah...brilliant...I'm slow, give me a fucking break...

My views have changed...I realize now that a journal has to be personal and private...otherwise you will automatically censor yourself and you won't go "all out"...you hold yourself back...you don't actually say what you really want to say...and that's not what true writing should be...
And sometimes I feel like a goldfish in a fish bowl...(kind of like a lost soul, swimming in a fishbowl, year after year)...

I might keep a regular journal...good ole' pen and paper...but then there are different risks involved with that...
It seems to be the best option though...I don't know...
Maybe one day people can see it...
Yeah...one day...

"My life ain’t no holiday
I’ve been through the point of no return..."
~New Order, "Vanishing Point"

:(

Oh man, this is bad...
I feel like shit right now, there's no way of describing it...
This is the pits, and I must drown myself...

"There's no today and there's no tomorrow
Where you find sadness I find sorrow..."
~New Order, "Let's Go (Nothing For Me)"

Bright Eyes Concert...

The Bright Eyes Concert was on Thursday @ Town Hall...
It was a lot better than expected, I went into the concert not expecting much, but they came through and put on a great show....

The first band was crazy...Coco Rosie...4 people dressed up in 80s clothes, when they came out I thought they were go-go dancers...
There was no drummer...instead of having a normal drummer, one of the girls tap danced on this aluminum trampoline thing while a microphone was on the ground...very creative and it work out nicely....
The second band was Tilly and the Wall, and they were really really trippy...
No drummer either, instead they had a guy with a feathery Native American decorative headgear...and he beatboxed into the mic...
One of the femal vocalists sounded like the Wicked Witch of the West on ecstasy and the other woman sang in falsetto, like an opera singer....
They had kid toys, little xylophones and sound machines made for kids that they used as rhythm for their songs....
Very different....

Bright Eyes hit the stage around 10 and rattled off a strong set, however they didn't play their single, which can be both a good and bad thing...
Some of the lyrics really hit home for me....and some of his songs were political....
For the encore they brought a baby out...the encore didn't start for like 10 minutes, when it finally started it lasted for like 30 minutes...
At the end, he summoned the feedback gods, and the entire band trashed the stage...
Overall a good show...

Interpol in approximately a month from now...

"When the president talks to god
does he fake that drawl or merely nod?
Agree which convicts should be killed?
Where the prison's built and filled?"
~Bright Eyes, "When the President Talks to God"